Well, I have been doing a lot better this week writing in my
journal, I think I wrote 6 of the nights. With my other goals, well, those have
been tough to get on top of. It's fun being a missionary, but it can get so
frustrating sometimes and lately I have been thinking about what other people
think of me as I walk by. Not in like a superficial or lack of self confidence
sort of way, but just what do they think I do? Why do they think I am here? I
have met a lot of other "missionaries" here in Ecuador from other
organizations, but I see them as people who are here for very different
purposes than I am; things like college application, getting to know a rad
country, ease of obtaining certain drugs, or other things like that. I hope
that people can see me and not think that I am here for any of those reasons. I
hope they see me as someone who really wants to help them. Honestly, I just
wish they saw me as an Ecuadorian, as weird as it may sound. I was going
through the notes that Bridgette took from my setting apart and saw that it
mentioned me feeling a strong bond with the Ecuadorian people, as if they were
kin. That has definitely come true for me. I like their weird food, I like their
weird music, I like their language, I especially like their land, and I just
like them. They all have such interesting lives and live at a different pace
than we do. It is comfortable for me now. I imagine most missionaries have
feelings like these at some point, but I just wish I could stay here longer (:
haha it is weird, and I love the both lives, but like I said, it is just so
comfortable for me here now. Well, have a good week.
Love Elder Blackwelder
Here are some pictures from the service we had this week...
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